Get out of here

It seems like we could be finished with the major parts of the boat and we would be on the water in a month.  Oh how many times we have thought this was possible.  Only to have our plans doused in a brutal reality.  Checklists and checklists are being made looked over, detailed.... Bad people out, good people in.....What is going to happen now?

I want to have hope, to move forward, one minute I am up then I'm shutting down. Ugh! David has himself on a crazy autopilot regime. 6 days of working on the boat. Paying the people who work, buying the stuff that is needed. I want to believe, we both need to have faith.

come around

Somedays I just want to fall on my face and cry.  I'm not really sure why because I have a lot to be so thankful for.

My angst lies in just knowing there will be yet another iteration of the same process of problem solving, one side saying it can't be done, we tried that etc. etc. The other side saying what they say and on and on....

Were we not told back in that garden that our work would be hard and we would never feel resolved, it sure doesn't make it any easier.

I want a new outlook , one that says "yes! here we go again lets see how this group handles things"....bright faces encouraged by experienced people who know at least to some extent, that there will be repetition; but, that there will also be breakthrough, and prayers that someone is alert enough to notice.

Lord
Give me confidence,
Let my insecurity rest with you.
I do not have to win or worry about loss,
Just let me reach out and
maybe make contact.