stop squirming

I feel like I spend a good deal of my conscious time, what ever it is I am doing, I am relying on God to be there for me, to guide me in decisions, to put His hand over my mouth if need be, so I don't say anything in appropriate.

I forget allot, that's why I apologize allot; and sometimes I just squirm, because I don't want to do what I have been told to do. So how to get over the squirms and walk headlong with out fear into that event or conversation, The one I do not want to go to? I have to rely on God.

I just read this quote from Tammy Evevard : "Long before any other words were spoken to us, “You are mine” was spoken to the depths of our hearts. And this is why we pray—to hear that voice again"— from Becoming the Woman God Made You to Be

So in addition to prayer she also advocates keeping tabs on all the times God has been there. When or where He answered my longing guided my behavior. These are the things that keep us going and believing and remembering, bringing us strength through reminders, so I continue to rely, and stop squirming.